LOST

If there was one word to describe how I feel
It would be
LOST.
I feel like drowning in a sea of sand
When truth be told
It’s just a pot of clay.
I so want to run
Just run away
Wherever my feet would take me
I just want to go somewhere
Where nobody would notice
How the world made me feel
How much I hurt
How many the unshed tears
Tear through my soul
Just to shout from the top of my lungs
And nobody would care
Just to bear my heart to someone
And he would listen.
Just to be able to cry
To be relieved of this burden
That continues to gnaw at my flesh
Slowly, inch by inch
Everyday.

I just want to run through the rain
And cry
Nobody would notice me
And nobody would care
And I would not care
And the chaos that surrounds me
Would not affect me
They would just vanish for an instance
In the crowded raindrops
In looking at my muddy feet
As I close my eyes
And tears start to build
I see your face
And dream of a better place
Where we would be together
Again.
Just for an instance
Where all innocence is present
And sin is not an issue
And the warmth of your hand
Touching me
Is for me
Meant only for me
The smile that you have
Is your smile for me
Squeeze my hand
The freedom that surrounds me
The peace that I long for
The security that you possess
And the love
The love
Only meant for me
And as I dry my cheeks
And imagine all these things
I look around and see
An empty bed
A shallow grave
A pillow wet with tears
And my heart
In front of me
Broken
Shattered
Washing away
In my painful agony
I wish all the best for you
As I drown in my loneliness
And you in your sadness
Of us being apart
And never will be
Never will we be
Together.
In my dreams
They took you away too.
In my reality
There was never
A me and you.