just chilling. watching e entertainment news. should be working but what the heck!

havent you had days when you just want to chill? this is one of MY days. Having a siggy, in front of my pc nad tv and having my feet propped up in my bed is chilling time.

still wondering though, if he has thought about me today.

cause damn, i hate to admit it but he crossed my mind like, i dunno, about 3 times today.

after eating breakfast (1), while doing laundry (2) and while givng the dogs a bath (3)

fucking boring my life is today.

now, its 8.30pm and im sleepy na! gotta get my eye mask on and lie down dawg.

nyt.

ps...shit his face crossed my mind again! (4)

got to work today about 9:10 in the morning (i asked our very lovely accountant tere). tired sick, you see. i was sick... am still sick.

went to the site (heavens garden memorial park) where our company is the developer of this huge memorial park...gotta take exact measurements becoz we're relocating some of the lawn lots...

some pics of the estates just for sharing...

creepy

MOVE ON?!

People always, ALWAYS, talk about moving on...
Moving on when someone dies, someone got the promotion other than you, move on when you want to smack the person in front of you...

BUT HOW THE HECK DO WE REALLY MOVE ON?

Enroll in a gym? Did that, past tense>> done that. Now I don't have the luxury of either time or money or energy... What did i get? A fab body for about 4 months, and then a couple of cute guys and a couple of good dates... but nothing heartwarming or anyhing.

I know. To summarize the one suggested above by virtually every cosmo mag there is...
KEEP YOURSELF BUSY.

I kept myself busy by working like crazy. Yep. That one advice is quite handy. You tire yourself out so when you come home you can collapse in bed and sleep and do the whole thing all over again. And when you look in the mirror after a month or so of SUPER hard labor, you stare and find some 40 yr old chick with big bags hanging in each eye instead of some preety hot young professional. SHIT!

Well, what else? How Do people move on from something so wonderful (even the seperation was quite easy) and so special? Don't get me wrong though, i am not wanting or wishing or yearning for him to come back into my life (well just a tiny tiny tiny bit). Im fine where im at.

I just get so worked up over the fact that people around me seem to think that whenever they utter the words..."okay lang yan, kaya mo yan, dami iba dyan" they feel that they've done enough... ganun ba talaga yun? after all that time together a couple of beers and a couple of hugs and kisses from your mates will make sleeping alone again better? >?

Advice for myself... gotta take things in stride. focus on washing the dog, doing laundry, reading a good book while having a cup of really good coffee and siggys. just really being able to cry for the love lost, without prejudice, being able to scream my heart out and question God (just for a milli second) why he doesn't love me, being able to act shitty all day just because you feel crappy, or just being able to act a bit boring. yun. take things in stride.

well...ACCEPT THINGS THE WAY THEY ARE> i am entitled (as anyone else) to have a bad and a good day. Because we can't solve a broken heart by just mearly keeping ourselves busy all the time, or partying, or even soul searching. Just accepting the things that come along our way. And learning. and having time to mourn the love we lost.

HA.

wencislao, must visit yah all!

sa bus pa lang ang gulo na! this is my super special "friend" benedict.. mukhang gago!





have recently been on this beach that my friend jhanice knew about. kasi its the resthouse of our landlord in holyghost... (a place in baguio)


good god! such a beautiful place!









after walking a punishing 1 kilometer in the noontime sun, we finally got there. actually the walk wasnt all that bad, considering there was a slight breeze... and the view... oh my gosh! it was awesome... daming moo, considering hindi siya mukhang palayan! hehehe













we were there with jhanice (our new super sexy nurse!), cynthia (the ever-present and ever-unpredictable girlfriend of bjorn), of course, mr. avena himself, ricky (supremo), his cousin carlo, ryap p.* (not his real name) (our very own artista)(hehehe), karen (the off the spot off her rockers friend of ours), jay apigo and his psp, my benedict and me.





alam mo kung anong sumalubong sa akin? this spectacular sunset (we arrived there at 5:30pm...just in time...

of course, picture picture na! saya saya.

have you ever seen a female jordan? well now's your chance! hehehe









my friend bjorn (so cute lalo na in person!) (huy libre mo ko)








and me behind the pinoy big brother erning house

me and cynthia

well, those are the pics...actually sandamukmok pa yan... ill publish them next time...

saya lang and i wanted to share it with everyone!

labyah!