Do any of you have an idea?

I know
That you love me
That is why
You tell me things
That sometimes
I dont want to hear
And I accept the fact
That I hate being told
Whatever it is
That I need to
DO

Sometimes though
It seems that
You have permanently
Put me inside this glass
Forever a child
Not being able to recognize
Facts around me

I know
It sometimes gets harder
Living with me
Trying to understand me
Feeling my pain

But I just hope
You get an idea
Of what it takes to be here
Without you
What kind of rocks I have to
Barricade my soul
Just to feel numb
Just to let go
Just to forget that I feel
That I am human
You have to get an idea
On how it is
To live alone
Nobody
Witnessing your live
To prove you are still alive
To hope that
Tomorrow it's gonna get better
To make you feel
Better
Because as solid as I am
Sometimes I too
Feel weak
And needy
And lonely

I know
That whatever you say
Is for me
My well-being
And I appreciate it
But dont also forget
That I know
What it takes
What I have to do
I have plans
Dreams
For a better future
Wait and See
and Let me prove to you

Becasue I've already proven it
To me.

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True Story of Unconditional Love

This is so sad, yet touching.
Reece Fleming was diagnosed with leukaemia back in 2004 when he was just 4 years old.
He battled the disease for years until this May, when doctors gave the 8 year old boy only a few weeks to live.
The family decided to try and help him achieve most of his goals before he would pass. And one of those was to marry his school sweetheart, Elleanor Purgslove.
Reece's mother said "When we found out that we only had a few weeks with him we tried to do absolutely everything with him that we could. Him and Ellie had been 'special friends' for a couple of years but then they broke up. We said we'd have a pirate party, and Ellie came. She went to visit Reece a few times in hospital as well."
Then during a recent laser tag party, Reece "proposed" to his little friend.
After she accepted, their parents arranged a pretend wedding at Reece's home (not the kids pictured above).
The families went out to dinner in the mayor's limousine and organized the wedding with rings and even a fictional certificate.
The kids got married on July 4th. And Reece told his mom, "I can go now," after his wedding wish had been fulfilled.
His mom added, "He was so proud of her, and we were proud of them both."
The following day after the wedding, Reece died at home with his family.
Soooooo sad!
During the funeral, the mourners followed a horse-draw hearse on foot.
His mom added, "Even on the Saturday that he died, he got out of bed and walked to the sofa. He always tried walking, right to the end, so we thought if he walked for us then we would walk for him."
What an amazing little boy.

Shi-sha and Chai and New Friends

What started out as a trial tasting test for shi-sha (parang yosi nila na opium na legal na flavored) turned out to be a mini tour of DUbai, courtesy of course, by Ovais and Usuf and Zahid.

Ovais is currently an architect at the same company I work with. Usually reserved and stuck in front of his computer, except for the occasional sigarilyo, this guy is really nice.

So when the opportunity came to go out with him for some shi-sha that I've been dying to try, I went ahead and joined him and his friends for a night out of town.

Some pictures of shi-sha, jumeirah sand sculpting, dinner at a lebanese restaurant (good), starbucks, and sharjah, that night turned out to be one unforgettable night. why? because we never planned anything, and what started at around 9pm ended at 9am!
:)

Ovais and me at jumeirah

sand sculpting

come on bois finish it already

could you make out what we are doing?

look closely!

shi-sha @ bur dubai

choi or whatever (tea)

lamb kebabs

and shawarma

zahid and his girl

who we fetched at the airport

its morning already!

at starbucks, 7am, dubai marina

usuf and ovais

zahid

2 architects

thanks for the great time you guys!

:)

So many thing left unsaid...all said by bamboo

Much has been saidSaid you'd never leaveWhy'd it have to beHarder than it had to beNow don't you throw the blameYou were part of thisWasn't supposed to endWith us just walking awaySo many times we triedHolding on to the painBut in my baby's eyes i see my shameAsking why you had to leaveWasn't i strong enoughTo make you seeThat the biggest part of thisIt's not about you or meBut just been wrongIf we held onSo maybe tomorrow we'll findA taste for the old daysHard lessons we've left behindThis mirror's an open doorI can barely stand to see myselfI don't know what to do anymoreI'm crying out for helpOoh lordOoh lordMuch has been saidWell i never learnedKeeping my fingers crossedPraying for my luck to turnBut i can't complainI'm living it easyJob's keeping me busy i'm going crazyCan't describe the way it feltWhen you left said you goodbyesIt just seems crazy for me to thinkThat i found love the same timeBut we all know how it all wraps up in the endSo maybe tomorrow we'll findA taste for the old daysHard lessons we've left behindThis mirror's an open doorI can barely stand to see myselfI don't know what to do anymoreI'm crying out for helpOoh lordOoh lordOoh lordUmmm...What am i leaving behindSweet how we see the big pictureWhen your life's not on the lineI know the way out but do you see what i seeA tortured life always second guessing the bookiePut money on the table thought that was all i had to doNever came home never said a word to youNo one ever said it was going to be easy easy yeahStart over again this time this time let's do it rightStart over again but this time this time let's keep the fires burning burning yeahStart over again start over again but this time this time let's do it right sweet childStart over again start over again but this time this time let's keep the fires burning burning yeahYou say i only hear what i want to no, no, no, noYou say i talk so all the timeI talk so all the time

My Love

I was an unusually bright, sunny day. There I was, walking to the bus stop to wait for my shuttle. It was hot, and the air was dry, and my coat was starting to get heavy from the sweat that started to accumulate as I exited my house. As I boarded the welcome relief of the air-conditioned coaster, I sat in wonder what have I gotten myself into.

I remember the first day that I saw you. The perfume you had on lingered in my head. The smile you gave me when you offered me a cigarette was one for the books. You shook my hand, never realizing that when you did, you opened doors for the impossible. It’s as if that moment, I knew that there was definitely something, something about you that will make or break me.

There is kindness in you, innate kindness that others do not see. Kindness that melts away locked keepsakes and forces one to be hopeful. It judges no one, and sees truth behind beautifully built facades. I saw in you everyday, the silent man underneath. You are full of nonsense in a world full of idiots and vulgarity, and yet when all the pretending is over, you revert to your true self. That is, a man with truth and sadness and beauty spun around a world full of satin branches. So fragile you are, yet so beautiful.

I do not know why I say these things to you, and why my heart skips a beat every time you pass by. I do not know why I write stuff that I can’t seem to find. I just know that when you are near, and when I close my eyes, and when you see me, I smile back and say I see you too.

It would just have been wrong, if we held on to those glances. It would have been fine, if we never gave into the romance. It would have been okay, to mind our business aside from our usual professional banters. I would be just dandy, if you have never left you seat and extended your hand to mine.

I do not regret, the day I saw you. The day I got to know you is another story. You have unwittingly changed me. I am special to you as you are mine. And I will be yours in our little dreams, in our friendly wishes.

I did not tell you to love me, love is such an over-rated word. The feeling that comes forth after uttering those 3 words is the deal-breaker.
They always ask me, to never forget them. I always say yes, I will never do. But as I peddled as fast away from you as I could, I knew, that you are one of the two persons in my life that I WILL NEVER FORGET...Because just for an instance, I got myself figured out.
You will never know that you have stolen my heart.

I woke up, because my pre-programmed routine alarm went off. I know I am near the office. I fixed myself up and pulled my glasses close to my eyes. I combed my hair and stood up. As I alighted from the shuttle onto the lift that will take me to the office I know and love, I glanced back and there you were...smiling back at me.

I almost fell for you. ALMOST.

Thank God I woke up.

But

I will see you again in my dreams tonight

My Love.

Dubai Buhay

Minsan kasi
Dumarating sa buhay natin ang pagka-bagot
Sa araw araw na ginawa nating pareho
Ritual
Gumising, maligo, kumain, pumasok
Sa lansangan, kanya kayang direksyon
Marami ang may pupuntahan
Ngunit walang patutunguhan
Marami rin ang ligaw
Marami ang hinahanap
At mga naghahanap
Pero paglabas natin ng kwarto natin
Iisa lang ang ating pakay
Ang magkaroon ng kabuluhan ang ating buhay
Kahit sa isang araw lamang

Pagkauwi
Kakain, magbibihis, magaayos ng gamit
Sa panibagong pakikibaka sa kinabukasan
Hihiga sa ating mga kama
Makakaramdam ng panandaliang ngiti
Dahil alam natin na pag nalapat na ang mga likod natin
Sa ating mga kama
Ito ay atin, at sa panandaliang tulog
Ang mundo ay atin
Araw araw mga kaibigan
Tayo ay may kani-kanyang paglalakbay
Tungo sa mailap na langit na ating pilit na inaabot

Sana sa ating pag gising
Makamit natin ang mga sandaling
Nawala
Nalunod
Sa pang araw araw na ritual
Makangiti man lang
At makahinga ng maluwag
Bago sumabak ulit
Sa ating mga
Minsanang ritual

LOST

If there was one word to describe how I feel
It would be
LOST.
I feel like drowning in a sea of sand
When truth be told
It’s just a pot of clay.
I so want to run
Just run away
Wherever my feet would take me
I just want to go somewhere
Where nobody would notice
How the world made me feel
How much I hurt
How many the unshed tears
Tear through my soul
Just to shout from the top of my lungs
And nobody would care
Just to bear my heart to someone
And he would listen.
Just to be able to cry
To be relieved of this burden
That continues to gnaw at my flesh
Slowly, inch by inch
Everyday.

I just want to run through the rain
And cry
Nobody would notice me
And nobody would care
And I would not care
And the chaos that surrounds me
Would not affect me
They would just vanish for an instance
In the crowded raindrops
In looking at my muddy feet
As I close my eyes
And tears start to build
I see your face
And dream of a better place
Where we would be together
Again.
Just for an instance
Where all innocence is present
And sin is not an issue
And the warmth of your hand
Touching me
Is for me
Meant only for me
The smile that you have
Is your smile for me
Squeeze my hand
The freedom that surrounds me
The peace that I long for
The security that you possess
And the love
The love
Only meant for me
And as I dry my cheeks
And imagine all these things
I look around and see
An empty bed
A shallow grave
A pillow wet with tears
And my heart
In front of me
Broken
Shattered
Washing away
In my painful agony
I wish all the best for you
As I drown in my loneliness
And you in your sadness
Of us being apart
And never will be
Never will we be
Together.
In my dreams
They took you away too.
In my reality
There was never
A me and you.

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I hope you never fail to see what love can do to somebody.
It heals all wounds and never breaks so easily.
I hope you take a moment each day just to listen
Admire what we all have, never give in
I hope you continue to dream big
It keeps the soul hungry for learning
And I hope when they ask you who you are
You never hesitate and tell them that

You are the fire that keeps me burning
You are the same soul that I’ve been longing
You are the light that keeps darkness away
You are the love of my life, my everyday.

I hope when life gets a little complicated
You continue to fight just for the sake of it
I hope when they tell you you could not do it
Teach them a thing or two, and never fake it
I hope when I am not with you
Know that our love will see us through

And when somebody asks you about happiness
I hope you’d tell them that
In this life
I was loved by you.