How do you explain this feeling?

So you came by today...

Honestly,

I was indifferent.

I was ecstatic that you were here

And yet I knew, that even if you weren't

I'd be okay.

I did not use to feel this way

Is it okay?

So you came by today...

We made love

Though that beating in my heart is silently away

The butterflies all just laid.

It was fanastic. It was also okay to be missed.

I cannot help but think that is it normal?

Is this okay?

So you came by today...

We had a fabulous talk.

Discussing things that we relevant and mundane

Still it was painful to jump a bit

Since my heart started acting up

Is it normal?

Is this okay?

What is normal by the way?

That is a conversation for another day.

What I am sure of though is that

I missed you.

Talking to you. You.