People always, ALWAYS, talk about moving on...
Moving on when someone dies, someone got the promotion other than you, move on when you want to smack the person in front of you...
BUT HOW THE HECK DO WE REALLY MOVE ON?
Enroll in a gym? Did that, past tense>> done that. Now I don't have the luxury of either time or money or energy... What did i get? A fab body for about 4 months, and then a couple of cute guys and a couple of good dates... but nothing heartwarming or anyhing.
I know. To summarize the one suggested above by virtually every cosmo mag there is...
KEEP YOURSELF BUSY.
I kept myself busy by working like crazy. Yep. That one advice is quite handy. You tire yourself out so when you come home you can collapse in bed and sleep and do the whole thing all over again. And when you look in the mirror after a month or so of SUPER hard labor, you stare and find some 40 yr old chick with big bags hanging in each eye instead of some preety hot young professional. SHIT!
Well, what else? How Do people move on from something so wonderful (even the seperation was quite easy) and so special? Don't get me wrong though, i am not wanting or wishing or yearning for him to come back into my life (well just a tiny tiny tiny bit). Im fine where im at.
I just get so worked up over the fact that people around me seem to think that whenever they utter the words..."okay lang yan, kaya mo yan, dami iba dyan" they feel that they've done enough... ganun ba talaga yun? after all that time together a couple of beers and a couple of hugs and kisses from your mates will make sleeping alone again better? >?
Advice for myself... gotta take things in stride. focus on washing the dog, doing laundry, reading a good book while having a cup of really good coffee and siggys. just really being able to cry for the love lost, without prejudice, being able to scream my heart out and question God (just for a milli second) why he doesn't love me, being able to act shitty all day just because you feel crappy, or just being able to act a bit boring. yun. take things in stride.
well...ACCEPT THINGS THE WAY THEY ARE> i am entitled (as anyone else) to have a bad and a good day. Because we can't solve a broken heart by just mearly keeping ourselves busy all the time, or partying, or even soul searching. Just accepting the things that come along our way. And learning. and having time to mourn the love we lost.
HA.
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Friday, April 27, 2007
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melissa jade, or mhykie to her friends, is a graduate of architecture from the university of baguio, philippines. currently working towards her board exams, she likes to read and swim and update her blog.

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